Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Tribute to Blue Square

People suck.  Relationships suck.  I don't know why I ever get involved with anyone.  They just walk all over me.  It's the story of my life:  I build up a lot of trust in a person over a period of months, than they completely take advantage of my feelings, then we have a falling out, and I feel like I can't trust them, and I feel like I can't trust anyone, and I decide to not get close to anybody for a period of couple of months.

It's my "trust" cycle.  It has happened many times.  Now I feel like I don't even want to try anymore.  I'm in that stage.  

Why are people like this?  Why do they make each other miserable? I want to know!!

I'm just walking along, living my life, trying to find people to trust, and then BAM! out of nowhere someone completely pretends to trust me and begs to be trusted and I fall for it and then that same person leverages that phony mirage of trust into a situation full of pain.  It's a classic bait-and-switch that I've fallen for many times.

I want to trust people.  How can I even live my life if I never trust anyone?  But when I don't feel like I can trust my friends I find myself cold and alone.  

2 comments:

  1. ill tell ya why, joel. cuz we humans somehow operate based on a loose consensus of what reality is, at best. no one is objective, we are all biased and have a different understanding of the same situations, different communication styles, different backgrounds and experiences. those experiences shape us. so misunderstandings happen. and where theres misunderstanding....there is often pain. and unrequited love ALWAYS brings pain. we alllll know that. and it ALWAYS sucks. i speak truth. but it really does suck and i really am sad for you to have this crappy experience right now.

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  2. N, humanity sucks!

    Your blog is cool, but mine is better.
    Sarah Hartsfield
    http://sareah.livejournal.com/

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